i am my only true obstacle

On Obstacles


I started writing this post last night. All day long yesterday and all morning…I just kept thinking about what it was exactly that was holding me back from accomplishing things I wanted or needed to accomplish.

And all I could come up with was ME.

I am the only thing holding myself back.

Not…

My insecurities.

My fear of failure.

My fear of success.

My fear of not being enough.

My fear of not measuring up.

My fear of not fitting in.

My fear of not being accepted.

My fear of looking…really looking…at myself in the mirror.

My fears…

Or whatever it is you want to call them…

My greatest adversary…

Me.

I’m the only thing holding myself back.

Because I can’t stand looking at myself in the mirror, I don’t give myself completely in ballet.

Because I’m so wanting to write yet so afraid to do it that I don’t.

Because I want to succeed so badly, I give up before I start.

Because

Because

Because.

Excuses.

For so many different aspects of my life.

I’ve gotten so used to placing blame on other things. But the fact remains, it’s all me.

I am my greatest obstacle.

I completely own up and take the blame.

The only problem now is…

I just can’t figure out how to overcome myself.

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