I’ve been feeling invisible.
Tiny.
Insignificant.
A speck on the radar.
Not in real life. I’m doing fine there. If I feel invisible, I just have to yell and jump around, someone is bound to take notice.
But in my social media life, all capital letters and virtual black lace bra throwing has as much impact as asking my children to put their plates in the sink.
Yeah, none.
Twitter.
Facebook.
Blogs.
More spaces online to spread my wealth of stupid knowledge and ramblings.
Yet, most of the time, they go unnoticed. Unheard.
I guess I’m feeling a little sorry for myself. I can’t help it, I suppose. Because, I WANTTTTT.
I’ve just been feeling so overlooked and under-appreciated here. I watch newer bloggers get fabulous opportunities and I can’t help feeling, aside from happy for them, a bit jealous and curious.
Why them?
Why not me?
Hey, I’ve been here for a long time, I’m practically as old as the dinosaurs, minus the extinction.
I have mad writing skillz, sometimes.
A pretty decent personality.
I play well with others.
Yeah, I know. I always say that I’m here, in my space, to write.
Well, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.
OK, I am. Totally. Because, aside from my family, I live and breathe words.
I also am curious how it is that the things I try never succeed?
How come those I choose to work with don’t seem to WANT as badly as I do?
Business.
Blogs.
I’m reaching for the stars, I don’t expect instant gratification. I happen to know better.
I want though.
I’ve thought of trying to reinvent myself but I can’t.
I’ve considered switching to strictly reviews and giveaways.
UGH. Painful. I have a headache, just thinking about that.
I’ve considered sharing way more info than I should yet, it’s not worth the familial ramifications.
So, reinventing isn’t for me. I am who I am. I write how I write.
Yet, in a feeling completely sorry for myself type of way, it isn’t good enough here, online.
The reality of online success…it is NOT necessarily about quality. It’s about quantity.
It’s a numbers game. There’s no denying that fact.
You have the big numbers, the freaking STATS, you get the fab opportunities. Period.
It depends on the clique you hang in. Well, I’m not in a clique. I never was and I never will be. I’m a floater, just like I was when I was younger.
So, my words aren’t flowing as freely these days. I mean, holy crap, it’s been a week since I last blogged. That’s so unlike me.
In the meantime, I have nothing worth saying. Not really. Yet, the funny thing is, I have more incomplete drafts than ever before.
Well, the words will come back, they always do.
I’ll stop feeling sorry for myself, I’m sure.
Then I’ll go back about my business. Writing and wondering why it is that everything within the bloggy world is the way it is. And is it even really worth wasting my time pondering.
do u want to be famous? u want to make money? the odds are against u. U want to express yourself and self publish ur writings? this is the best way to go about it… be authentic, cause fame and money don’t matter
You rock (and drool) in my opinion.
I agree with Yisp(?) figure out what your motives are…and run with it…
staciesmadness´s last blog post ..Its 4-20
Here’s what I know.
It’s not a numbers game. In fact a couple people on the Nintendo trip (I didn’t go) do not even have blogs. What they do have is an authentic voice online either on twitter or facebook. What I learned on the last blogging conference that was mainly a discussion between marketers and bloggers was that companies look for people who their audience trusts. They read at least 3 months worth of posts and pages of twitter before choosing to work with a blogger.
Just keep being yourself and don’t treat it as a game. That’s what I try and do. Hugs!
I could have written this myself (ok, not this–I write very differently. But the sentiment. Ok, whatever this is breaking down here…).
What I struggle with is that I have very clear lines in my head about what I will and won’t do. And then I see so many many many people getting what I *WANT* by doing what I won’t do. And then I pout. Because I don’t WANT to do that stuff.
I’m trying to learn that my path is not their path. My success is not their success. It may take me longer, but I’ll be happier with myself when I get there doing it the way *I* feel comfortable.
At least, that’s what I try to tell myself.
Ginger´s last blog post ..The Mystery of the Pants
I feel pretty invisible online as well. I read, I comment a lot, and occasionally I’ll get the traffic back. But it’s rare. I put a lot of myself out there, probably too much. And I see other bloggers that write (like shit!) get some really cool opportunities and I’m sitting her scratching my head saying, “HMmm…that’s odd.”
I blog because it’s therapy for me, so I’m ok with it. But at the same time, I have my moments where it really gets under my skin.
For the record, I love your blog 🙂
Michelle´s last blog post ..Dont Judge Me
The one place I don’t feel invisible lately is online. But not because I’m a “known” blogger – but because whenever I put myself out there – whether it’s the usual fluff or if I pour my heart out – all my “friends” pipe up. But that’s my satisfaction – that’s what I’ve decided I want out of my blog (which I figured no one would ever find anyway – imagine my surprise when they showed up) to just meet new friends; friends that I would have never met otherwise. So you need to figure out exactly what you want to get out of blogging, set the parameters of what you are willing to do (or not) and then go for it. You are funny; you are a good writer and if you keep it up you will eventually get what you are seeking. I feel sure of it.
Gigi´s last blog post ..The Difference Between Clicks and Slams and emotional satisfactio
Forget about the numbers or the instant gratification. I find you can’t go thru life expecting to get praise for every single thing you do – that’s no way to live. Just continue doing what you’re doing, and enjoy it for its own sake =)
Henway´s last blog post ..Nutrisystem Tips
Is that why you write?? For fame and fortune? And here I was thinking you were one of those diamonds in the rough.
I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. Yes, I like to see comments; yet, I could give a rat’s behind whether or not I get noticed. Being famous or in the right clique is way over-rated. If you aren’t ever in the “club,” you never have to know what it’s like to be kicked out of the club. That’s got to be far more pathetic.
I hear you. I haven’t really ever tried to make my blog more popular so I can’t really complain that it isn’t. It did hurt when my husband (who has a wildly popular blog that has brought him all sorts of wonderful opportunities) told me that one of his sites that he hasn’t touched in two years still drew more traffic than my blog that I post on fairly regularly. Ouchy.
MomZombie´s last blog post ..Pictures of my life- Part 2
Oh I have so been there. And one day I stopped checking analytics and feeling crappy that I got 3 comments (see you’ve tripled me!!) and I was amazed how much freer I felt. I would never do giveaways, but I write reviews elsewhere.
I agree with all those who have encouraged you to just keep writing because you enjoy it. And happen to be darn good at it.