I’ve been at one of those silly proverbial crossroads with my blog. It’s just a blog, right?! It shouldn’t, on occasion, be the bane of my existence. Yet, it is. More often than naught lately.
I’m not looking to make a fortune from my blog. I don’t think I have the kind of blog that does. It would be nice though, no?
All I care about is being able to write my stories, whether they be about my life or lives I make up, and be validated. And interact with my wonderful friends that still feel they want to come and hang out with me here and on Twitter.
This is the one place in the world that oozes of me. Only me. Not the me that is quantified by this person who is called mommy and wife. My voice. My words. My thoughts.
But I’ve been feeling like I’m working so hard with my blog and to no avail. No growth. Stagnating in every sense of the bloggy world word.
I got an email from Jennifer, at Playgroups Are No Place For Children. She informed me that my post, When Every Little Bit Of Hope Is Gone, Move Along that I wrote for the Tide Loads Of Hope carnival at Blog Nosh was the first of three posts that were going to be featured on Blog Nosh.
A post that I wrote.
That post that was a part of my life. Real. It happened. It was a moment in time that defined me as the person I am today.
Strong. Determined. Brave.
It felt like I received a huge paycheck when I got that email from Jennifer. Because my life and my words were appreciated. They made sense. And they could give someone else who was about to embark on that same journey I made, all those years ago, hope. That things do work out for the best. You just have to be strong enough to take that deep breath, jump and have faith that there will be a net to catch you.
So, If you’ll excuse me. I won’t be shutting down my blog or making it private after all. I’ll try my hardest not to worry about how many people are reading me. I’ll try to ignore the stats and comment numbers. Because, as I’ve said way too many whiny times, it’s not the quantity. It’s the quality.
I have the best friends in the entire blogosphere.
I’m lucky. VERY lucky.
I have the best blog in the blogosphere. Because it’s mine.
And I’m being featured in Blog NoshMagazine. Which is such an incredible honor.
So, while I’m standing at this proverbial crossroad, with my chest puffed out in pride, I’ll take my chances. I’ll go continue on the road that I was on. One that is frustrating, discouraging, annoying, dramatic and all sorts of other adjectives. Because the rewards are rich in jewels such as you, my gems of friends and in high flying ego boosts like featured articles.
Because yes, it’s just a blog. But it’s all mine.
And right now, I’m just really, really proud.