I know I shouldn’t be, but I am. It’s life. Frustrations are cyclical, right.
I’m still worried about my daughter. Despite the hour long conversation I had with the parent liaison and her reassurances that my daughter is fine. Because, she claimed, if my daughter wasn’t fine, we’d be having an entirely different conversation regarding when and what time I’d be picking her up. I left her at camp. Hopeful that she is really and truly starting to enjoy herself as promised.
So I called back today. Just to do a check up. And I have to wait to hear back from them. Sigh.
I need a new car. Mine is dying a slow and painful death. Poor little feller. Besides, it’s too small for how big my kids are getting. I drive the first model of Honda Pilots. And boy, did I used to get stopped and questioned regarding that car. No one in my area really ever seen this car when I started driving it. I was one of two on the road in my area. I felt super cool! Not anymore. My car groans when I start it. I whines at the stop lights. It screams at me when I try to cajole it into keeping up with the other cars.
And it hates me.
I’m embarrassed by it. And I know, I shouldn’t be. It’s a car. It still looks nice, by all outward appearances. It’s what’s on the inside that counts. Which…it’s rotten to the core.
But we have lousy credit. And no extra money.
So I’m stuck driving a car that smells of rotting metal and feet.
I’m frustrated with blogging. I feel like I’m sort of stagnate. Just hanging out and hanging on. It’s frustrating to want more and to not know how to achieve it. Suggestions welcomed. Because I, my friends, have a tendency to run around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. And I’m awfully dizzy.
I can’t wait until SITScation in October. It’s going to be smaller than Blogher so less overwhelming. But I LOVED Blogher! Maybe I’ll learn what boat it is that I’m missing. Plus, it’s just going to be plain awesome. I had the pleasure of meeting some of the ladies at Blogher and I’m excited to see them again. AND. I like making new friends. I also like having amazing things to look forward too! And I think that blogging conferences are an amazing thing. So I’m looking forward to it!!
It becomes overwhelming.
I’m trying not to let it. I’m trying to enjoy the rest of my summer with my kids.
It’s working. I’m enjoying.
But I’m still…
Nancy from Fear and Parenting in Las Vegas says
It’s okay. I was there for a long time too. Give yourself a little time. Think about why you started blogging in the first place. What elements of that “story” are left to be told? What moves you right now. Focus on that. Write. Craft. Tweak. Find your joy, even if you never hit “publish.”
Yup. I get it.
As for the blogging…I think it’s normal to go through those phases. You have highs and lows and then there are the long, boring plateaus when you don’t think you’re doing much of anything.
Have you tried something out of your comfort zone? Like, I dunno, maybe poetry?
Do something to shake yourself up. Even if it “fails,” you learn from it.
I say take a break if you’re not enjoying it or feeling inspired.It’s not like you have a contract, right???
((Hugs)) to you Melissa.. I hope you get a better report today..
And what is SITScation? off to find out..
The Retired One says
You could try short stories on your blog, or maybe photography?
I know when I got my new camera and saw what beautiful photos it took, it was a whole new wonderful hobby and a way to post my photos. Now I like that even better than writing…and I was pretty passionate about wanting to write!
take each day as it comes…break it down to moments if you have to.
Erin Myers says
I can relate with the car issue. the car we have right now is not really legally driveable so we just dont drive. Our credit has also gone to poo and we also dont have any extra money. they upside? I’ll get LOTS of excersise when school starts up in a couple weeks ^_^
I know about being frustrated. That’s how I feel about our new house. It’s a nice house it’s just not my house in Michigan. I really have work at not thinking about all the things that make me crazy and frustrated. It’s easy to let the bad vibes take over and overwhelm you.
Maybe a break is in order. Sometimes we need to take a step back from things. Put your energy into something new. I sometimes have to turn the computer off and remember that I had hobbies before twitter, facebook and now blogging. =)
I am thinking about you. <3
Yo, you always seem to have plenty to blog about. Why so frustrated? I’m frustrated! I can’t hardly get a comment……I’d love to have your following, I need help!!
Good luck with a car……….maybe cash for clunkers will continue. 🙂
Enjoy your tweets and blogs. See ya on the twitter.
I’m with you on the blogging writer’s block. Sometimes I feel like I’m posting just to make sure I don’t lose readers. That’s stupid but I know I’m not the only one that does it – just maybe the only one that admits to doing it.
i could have written this post ….
karen bolton says
I know its frustrating, you definately HAVE TO HAVE a new car, your kids are sooo big now, i am pulling for you!!!
Tara R. says
I’ve decided to just lurk for a little while. I can’t really blog about what I want/need to so, I’m sitting back and reading for a change
Do what you need to do, maybe take a break for a week or so.
(((hugs))) sweetie. Just do what feels best for *you* regarding your blog and don’t worry about the rest.
The hubs and I may be going to Vegas sometime yet this year… how cool would it be if it could be while you’re there for SITScation?! Awesome. I’m not getting my hopes up, but it would be too wonderful.
It must be that time of the year (well, one of them, at least). Summer, getting close to the start of school & then everything goes so fast. It feels like there’s not enough time for everything yet we have too much time to think.
Good ideas about changing it up for awhile. Take some ideas from BlogHer & use them. Get outside & soak up some of that summer sun & the (good) smells of nature. Before you know it, it’ll be snowing here! (OW! Sorry, sorry! I didn’t mean to say the “S” word…) I think I’ll go hide for awhile now. lol
LizzB (@hereslizz) says
A Honda? Dying? I didn’t think that was possible 😉 Sorry you aren’t happy with your vehicle right now. May the force be with it for the next several thousand miles.
Hope you hear from your daughter soon. She’s not even mine, but it’s killing me a little to think of her being so unhappy.
dysfunctional mom says
Totally feel you on the car frustrations. My van died, we had to sell it. Now we’re a one car family, and that car? Is CRAPPY. We need something new, not even brand new, just new to US! But again….no credit and no money.
It’s hard getting out of the frustration loop. Can you get some time off sometime to do something for yourself?
I totally relate. And password protected posts just don’t do it for me anymore, yanno?
Big hugs, hon. xoxo