I know I shouldn’t be, but I am. It’s life. Frustrations are cyclical, right.
I’m still worried about my daughter. Despite the hour long conversation I had with the parent liaison and her reassurances that my daughter is fine. Because, she claimed, if my daughter wasn’t fine, we’d be having an entirely different conversation regarding when and what time I’d be picking her up. I left her at camp. Hopeful that she is really and truly starting to enjoy herself as promised.
So I called back today. Just to do a check up. And I have to wait to hear back from them. Sigh.
I need a new car. Mine is dying a slow and painful death. Poor little feller. Besides, it’s too small for how big my kids are getting. I drive the first model of Honda Pilots. And boy, did I used to get stopped and questioned regarding that car. No one in my area really ever seen this car when I started driving it. I was one of two on the road in my area. I felt super cool! Not anymore. My car groans when I start it. I whines at the stop lights. It screams at me when I try to cajole it into keeping up with the other cars.
And it hates me.
I’m embarrassed by it. And I know, I shouldn’t be. It’s a car. It still looks nice, by all outward appearances. It’s what’s on the inside that counts. Which…it’s rotten to the core.
But we have lousy credit. And no extra money.
So I’m stuck driving a car that smells of rotting metal and feet.
I’m frustrated with blogging. I feel like I’m sort of stagnate. Just hanging out and hanging on. It’s frustrating to want more and to not know how to achieve it. Suggestions welcomed. Because I, my friends, have a tendency to run around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. And I’m awfully dizzy.
I can’t wait until SITScation in October. It’s going to be smaller than Blogher so less overwhelming. But I LOVED Blogher! Maybe I’ll learn what boat it is that I’m missing. Plus, it’s just going to be plain awesome. I had the pleasure of meeting some of the ladies at Blogher and I’m excited to see them again. AND. I like making new friends. I also like having amazing things to look forward too! And I think that blogging conferences are an amazing thing. So I’m looking forward to it!!
It becomes overwhelming.
I’m trying not to let it. I’m trying to enjoy the rest of my summer with my kids.
It’s working. I’m enjoying.
But I’m still…