I offended my parents by my last post. For that, I’m sorry.
They are used to me speaking and writing of the good memories. And my happy childhood. They didn’t expect that previous post on my blog.
Really…I had a great childhood. Full of wonderful memories. And full of incredible opportunities. I was very attached to my parents. Heck, I still am.
But, with every family…there are bad times. We ALL know that. NOTHING is picture perfect…ever.
I guess that, despite the fighting, I’m lucky that my parents stuck together. They still are together. And really, basically, they gave me a firm foundation to be able to have the capacity to make decent decisions. Not that I always did. But, like I said…they gave me the capacity…
With all of that being said…
I’m still entitled to speak of my feelings…HERE in particular. In my little piece of the blogosphere.
Where, if someone is going to judge me, they can…and they don’t ever have to come back here. Including my parents.
The feelings expressed on my last blog post were MY FEELINGS. And because of that, no one has the right…including my parents…to tell my that my feelings were wrong or exaggerated. Because I don’t think I was either wrong OR exaggerating. It was how I felt. It was what I saw and heard.
But again…
Really and truly…
I had a wonderful childhood. With parents who loved and adored both my sister and myself. Who opened our eyes to things that so many children are never given the opportunity to experience. And for that, I’m grateful.
So…Mommy and Daddy…
despite how you felt about my last post.
Just know that…even though I need intense shock therapy and heavy anti-depressants (kidding)…
I love you.
And I wouldn’t trade either one of you in…
Unless it was for someone who had a trust fund for me…
But since that doesn’t seem to be the case…sigh, I guess I’m stuck with both of you.
I LOVE YOU!!
Gah. Sorry you had to write a “sorry” post.
You should never have to apologize for sharing your feelings.
I’ve left blog posts that have hurt people too. But I don’t understand how they can be SO upset about YOUR FEELINGS. That’s just the way you FEEL. You can’t help it! I guess you can be sorry that THEIR feelings were hurt, but why should you feel bad about the way you feel? I don’t think you should. I never wrote a sorry post though I did talk to those people over the phone and I explained that I didn’t intend to HURT their feelings, just to express mine. One person got over it. I’m not sure the 2nd one ever did…..
~A
Sucks when that happens. But you’re right. This is your place to say and do as you please.
It’s amazing how many truths there are to any one situation. That’s what it sounds like here. And now to understand what you were griping about…I better go and read!
This is also the beauty of family. We can vent, get pissed off, say horrible things, but when the flames die down – are able to come together and say “I’m Sorry.” The healing begins almost at the same time the hurt did. This is how you know that there is truly a foundation to your family, and that no matter what happened in the past, it cracks but does not crack apart. The cracks eventually become sealed with words, hugs, and time.
This is a lesson that both you and your mother should rejoice from. You vented, she reacted and you reacted back, but in the long run, you both came together as mother and daughter to realize – you are both only human, with human feelings and emotions that you can still share as a family.
This moment, too, shall pass with time.
God bless you both.
it’s healthy to talk about your feelings…sometimes I wish my mom would read my blog, but I’m not going to give her the web address. 😉
And that is precisely why I have not directed my parents to my blog. Although, I don’t need to hide it. My mother just learned how to check her email. It will be some time before she gets to clicking on links.
Well whatever you said (don’t have a password to enter) I’m sure you were speaking about what you heard, saw, felt…noone can fault you for that. If we all had the same perceptions, feelings & opinions oh what a boring world we would live in!
damn….i missed the post! but i have known your whole family a long time, and i am certain that whatever you wrote was written with lots of love. jeez…families arent perfect! and youre right…whatever you wrote are your feelings. and it doesnt change the love or feelings you have for your family.
So…I read your post before you put it under password protection, and of course, I lived through those same experiences. As I expressed to you and “your parents,” that is just one piece of the puzzle that you are made of. While you have every right to “vent” to whomever and in whatever forum you’d like, I do understand why they were upset. I’d be embarrassed too, if my inappropriate behavior was publicized over the blogosphere. And i’d be even more embarrassed if my inappropriate behavior was publicized to people who were fooled by the image our family projected. BUSTED! The truth is, our family is not…I repeat, not…perfect! Fortunately, I am and have always been PERFECT so you have nuthin’ on me. 🙂 But, in seriousness, I can’t imagine that anyone who has ever been a part of a family unit would not take what you wrote with a proverbial “grain of salt” since that entry was obviously focused on why you think you are screwed up and not on the “dysfunction” of our family. And, anyone who knows our family knows how intensely bonded we are despite our individual and collective craziness. I dare anyone who would judge our family based solely upon your single entry to find another family that is closer and more loving than ours! If “your parents” are more concerned with their own embarrassment than with the discovery that their eldest child needs intense psychotherapy, then shame on them. 🙂 Mom and Dad will get over it, and so should you. Just don’t spill my secrets or i’ll have to feed you to the toads! 😉
I love you!!
It wouldn’t take my regular password to read it.
Why was it password protected?
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