Financially, things have been super tight for a long time here.
Stress levels have been exceptionally high.
Fighting has escalated between hubby and I.
I was petrified of losing my home.
I lay in bed, every night…having a dialogue with someone…something…that I’ve had troubles believing in.
I would say things like…if you help us…I PROMISE, I’ll believe in you.
Me.
Saying things like THAT.
To an entity that I wasn’t entirely convinced existed.
But…desperate times seemed to be SCREAMING for desperate measures.
So, I kept on having this little conversation with someone who I wasn’t sure was listening.
And…I waited. Maybe I nagged a lotabit, too.
Finally…
my husband got his act together.
And started working on trying to save our house.
We couldn’t get a new mortgage. Our credit has been shot for ages now.
But…a couple months ago, we were told that we qualified for a mortgage modification.
It wouldn’t be ready until after December 1st.
Then…I heard nothing.
I didn’t think my husband was working on it. He has ostrich-like tendencies.
But on Tuesday,
after having little faith in my husband…
we received a package delivered by Federal Express…
From our mortgage holder…Countrywide…
with our mortgage modification papers.
All we had to do was have them signed and notarized.
And our mortgage would be cut down to a manageable rate. Where we could breathe. And…pay our mortgage. And still have money left over to feed our children.
So…
it’s done.
We signed the papers.
Had them notarized.
And mailed them back.
And for the first time. In a few years…
I have been able to breathe.
And for the first time. In QUITE A FEW YEARS…
I’m rethinking my belief…
because I think that perhaps…
SOMEONE heard my cries for help.
And I think that SOMEONE…
took pity on this person…
who was losing FAITH on SO MANY levels…
And that SOMEONE…
in SOME WAY…
proved his/her mere existence…
Which is making me rethink
what it was that I had been thinking.
And I just want to say…
THANK YOU. For this small little gift. Because…I didn’t ask to win the lottery. I didn’t ask to be rich. I simply asked for help in kicking my husband in the ass to get the ball moving…
And that SOMEONE…heard me. And gave a kick…
and now I don’t have to worry about losing my house.
And to me…in some strange, small way
it was kind of the proof I was looking for.
So now, I have to keep my promise…
and start believing again.
Hi OH YAY that is so GOD!! OK now that you do believe and I beleive that you believe there is so much more!! I can tell you volumes of stories and miracles that has happened in my “short” Christian life but will start with the biggest of all miracles and that is from prayer. GOD will answer ALL of your prayers some may be HUGE and some tiny but HE will answer them!! Remember every time you go through something not so good GOD has a reason for it….Oh yeah you will still argue oh yeah you will still do really awful things but now they will be much easier to deal with. Hebrews 11:6 is one of my favorite verses in the bible! YAY WOO HOO pray pray pray my girlfriend says when we get to heaven there will be all of these glittery golden crystal packages and we will say what are those? She says God says Oh those are the gifts I had for you but you never even asked!! Not just material gifts either the best are peace, joy and love!
♥ Julee
Matthew 17:20 says that all we need is faith the size of a mustard seed and mountains will move. But faith is to be in both good times and bad. It is in the bad times that our faith grows and makes us stronger. When we are doing well we seemed to think we don’t need God but, as you can attest, it is only a matter of time before we need Him again. Welcome back to the fold. Pray, study and grow! God bless!
This gave me a little chill. I’m SO glad you don’t have that terrible worry hanging over your head any more. A little faith is a good thing. I know He helped us out this Christmas, no doubt about it.
I told you. You’ve gone through a lot and someone listened.
Aww, I’m so happy for you. I bet it feels like a thousand pounds has been lifted off your shoulders. What a great way to head into the new year.
awesome.
Thats awesome! You concentrated your thoughts on something positive (saving my home and NOT dont let me LOSE my home) and your Higher Self listened. It shows to me the power of thought (prayer) really exists.
🙂
This made me cry, it is such a beautiful story!
The best part is the renewal of your faith!
fantastic. 2009 will be awesome for you, i just KNOW it.
So many people would overlook that as an answered prayer. So good for you for not overlooking it, and seeing that someone was listening.
Just stopped by from Malskey’s blog.
Thanks for stopping by my blog! I’m so glad you recieved a Christmas miracle… Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!
All I can say is Good. Good to not losing your house, for being able to breathe, for hubby getting a move on it and for you believing again!