Wanna know why? Well…for a multitude of reasons. Ready for my bitch and moan session…which is all that I’ve been doing lately, anyways!
OK…
I feel like I’m the obsessive wife. I am CONSTANTLY checking his email and facebook account. I’m so annoyed that because he decided to sneak to see an alleged lesbian/ex-girlfriend/perhaps not a lesbian…that STUPID ASS has made me a paranoid freakish wreck. And…this is without him even having an affair. Imagine how awful I’d be if it had been.
Yesterday, my allergies were horrible. Today…they are so bad that my voice is GONE! Which…that sucks because how am I supposed to yell at anyone? Sticking up the middle finger isn’t actually as affective as being able to scream and swear WHILE flipping the bird. SIGH.
Today was my step-sons fifth grade graduation. And…his birth mother. DID. NOT. COME!! It didn’t matter to him that I was there. Actually, he is used to me not missing anything. But…he wanted to know if and when his mother was coming. And she had the NERVE to tell me that she is a better person than me, a couple of weeks ago. Not that it bothered me when she said that…I always can use the laugh. But…if she was even close to resembling a good person. AT. ALL…she would have been at her sons elementary school graduation! Stupid, piece of garbage woman that she is!
I am so sickened by the fact that I let this whole thing with my husband bother me the way I did. But, I told him that this was the first and last time I will EVER cry from him. The next time…I leave. With my kids. Without looking back. I made it very clear, I hope, that there better NEVER be a next time. Especially if he truly loves me.
Lastly, in closing, finally…for now…
I hate that I constantly am complaining about crap, these days. Life has been kinda dark-ish, lately. Which is shadowing my blog. And…overpowering my light personality. But…I’m sure that things will work themselves out. Things always do. Right?
Well…I will just keep telling myself that.
In the meantime…I am keeping my eyes and ears peeled…just for some funny fricking blog post fodder. What is wrong with my male chauvinist son? Except that, recently, he has started telling me that he is a boy/girl. So…maybe, right now, at this very minute…he isn’t feeling very chauvinistic. Because, he’s trying to get in touch with his inner female side…maybe?
Aw, I’m sorry it’s a rough day. We’re here for you though…don’t forget. Once you can talk again, call me!! You can vent all you want.
And if it makes you feel any better, I added you to my blogroll today. 🙂
Everything will be fine. 😀
Hang in there, woman! This too shall pass!
sending hugs. there will be a silver lining somewhere ….
Just keep being who you are, and that will take the sting out of your step-son’s no-good birth mother. And try to get some rest and maybe take an herbal (seriously). That helps me keep my emotions on an even kiel.
Sorry for all the suckage lately. It will get better, it will.
Lady,
I’m sorry you’re have a rough time. I know where you are. I’ve been that person.. checking email and myspace accounts. I even check cell phones. STILL, till this day, I check his phone.
But, it will get better, slowly. The frequency of your freak-outs will be come less and less and eventually you won’t want to do it anymore.
But if he’s willing (my boyfriend was not, I would strongly and whole-heartedly suggest therapy for you both. It will hopefully make the healing come quicker.
((HUGS))
AC aka Grey Street
Oh, that makes me so mad at your stepson’s “mother”! Ugh, that’s just awful. Poor kid.
Bless you sweetie. My allergies are acting up too, in spite of my expensive prescription medication.
As to hubby, perhaps this scared him enough to walk the straight and narrow.
Poor little boy. I hope he comes to appreciate you when he is grown and can fully process how lucky he is to have escaped that horrid person.
Uggg…I go through those periods too and I often wonder why people still read my blog when all I do is complain. They do though and so are we still reading yours. Vent all you want. It’s your blog and we would not have all followed you here if we didn’t love you! You go girl, vent on!!!
Yep, we all go through rough times and they will get better. It
is hard not to be emotional when it is about your spouse or
kids. Its okay to be emotional. Mega (((((HUGS))))))) !
Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming… Just keep swimming….
This too, shall pass.
“paranoid freakish wreck”–yeah, that’s what happens when they stomp all over our trust.
Time works wonders. It really does. Time and a lot of chocolate.
Tomorrow is another glorious day 🙂
I went through your older posts here to get the full story to this. I have been in your shoes! I know what you are going through! Mine did the same thing right after I had our second child together. If you ever feel the need to talk email me!
I’m so sorry you are going through this and I hope it gets better for you soon! The email I’m using is my personal email and I check that many times a day!
That really was a horrible day! LOTS of hugs to you and I hope that you’re feeling better!!